They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Today I believe that with all my heart. I'd like to say that this is a photo of my darling daughter...and it is. I'd like to say that this is a photo of my beautiful great niece...and it is. And I do love them both very dearly. But while I love them both, what I am loving more today is something else that the photo represents. It is something that has eluded me these past few nights.
Its loss has left me irritable, confused, and downright not fit for public consumption. It has ripped every creative thought from my soul and left me with dust. I try not to be overly dramatic, for I know that my very worst day is someone else's best day. I know I have a wonderful, healthy family, a dry warm home, a fantastic teaching career, and the best group of folks, both young and adult, with whom you would ever want to spend your working hours.
I am well fed.
I am clothed.
I am loved.
I am so very blessed in so many ways each day.
And I am so...very...tired.
Today I love sleep.
I love pillows and blankets and comforters and flannel and fleece and quiet and warmth and darkness and smooth, sweet, silky sleep. I love stretching out and rolling over and curling up and falling right back into that deep abyss.
For those of you with young children, sleep the sleep of the peaceful now while you can. As your children grow into teenagers and get jobs and cars and responsibilities beyond the reach of your arms, your peaceful sleeping hours will shorten to what they once were as parents of newborns.
I thought I had forgotten those days, but oh how quickly they come tumbling back...when it is not the cough or sniffle or sob that wakes you in the dark of night, but the key in the lock...or lack thereof. The waiting and wondering...are they safe? Are they driving carefully? Did they wear their seat belt? Did they listen to all of those warnings? Did they hear us say, "I love you" as they walked out the door this time? Who are they with...really? Will they call for help if they need it?
They did listen...just as we did.
I am blessed.
Today I love sleep.